啊弥陀佛！

被上鄂牙龈的一块肿痛缠绕了近一个月，今天本打算去看牙医，却发生了一件我毕生都无法忘怀的事。。。一件已在我潜意识里着根的事。 他像一记重锤铛地一声桥上了我的脑门，沉闷的，连续的在握耳际嗡嗡作响。。。铛铛铛。。。
下午2.00pm, 因为错过了天桥的分岔口，有点慌乱地从一尺多的栏杆隙缝间由左吃向右，根本没去留意后方的车辆，在那电光火石间，一记刺耳地令人心颤的刹车声从后方传来，我的直觉告诉我，我闯祸了，更重要的是菩萨救了我！在那生命一线牵的瞬间！我很感激后面的uncle， 如果他来不及刹车，我想也就不会有这篇Blog了， 啊弥陀佛！我想大声地说啊弥陀佛！（-_-) 。。。
我的心告诉我，这是很严重的错误，以后再也不能再重蹈覆辙， 再也不能。
离新年还有5天的今天，在向2005告别，即将迈入2006的今天，我得到了人生的一个教训，人，千万不可犯规，只因你的一举一动，牵连到的不只是你自己，还有你周遭的人，事，物。。。 人生没有take 2, 后悔是最无用的东西，只因有时往往已经太迟了，已没有亡羊补牢抑或悬崖勒马的余地。 每一秒里，我能做的就是好好去爱惜自己的生命， 以及周围的朋友，我的家人，还有好多好多也许跟你只有一面之缘的人， 抑或从未谋面的人。我要更爱惜自己的生命，啊弥陀佛，感激感谢菩萨保佑！今天，说真的，我很感动，只因人间有情是多么美好的一件事，一件造物主的得意之作，上天赐给世间的天籁。。。最后，我要跟佛陀忏悔，对于我今天所说的谎言，祈求佛陀宽恕我， 以及我的朋友，祈求佛陀宽恕我们，啊弥陀佛 。。。

唠唠叨叨

发牢骚 。。。





年关的脚步催魂般地逼近了，毕业也快要一年了，一年的分分秒秒里，发生了好多事情。。 每一天，都有无数的日记本上印下了点滴的故事，你我他的故事，或许相似亦未然，快乐的悲伤的，充满希望的，愤慨绝望的，编制梦想的， 怅荒末路的，笑着的，哭泣着的，太多太多了，从潘朵拉的箱子被打开以后。。。
从前，总认为有着多愁善感的心才算赶上了成长的列车。 于是，开始迷恋上琼瑶似的悲伤恋歌，总是一把鼻涕一把泪地沉浸其中。如今回想，不禁让人芫尔一笑。少年不似愁滋味爱上层楼，为赋新诗强说愁，如今试尽愁滋味，却道天凉好个秋~ 真是最佳写照。悲矣悲矣。:p
最近老是听到一句话，也许一句俗语会比较恰当， “人类因梦想而伟大”， 想想，如果空有梦想，那所谓的伟大该是自得其乐的吧 (-'_<) 然，我还蛮自得其乐的。。 haha 。。唉，反正发发白日梦不必缴税 :P 有白日梦，人生才有希望嘛！有时候，被工作压迫地连发白日梦都是种奢侈，为了面包，只好牺牲我伟大的白日梦。 写到这里，觉得自己的情绪有点无厘头的，算了，偶尔无厘头又何妨？生活如果缺了周星驰似的幽默， 那岂不是变成重熬了上十遍的药渣， 泛淡无味。 偶尔，就往生活添点糖醋味精的才有味嘛 :)

渐入冰河期的友情

炎热的午后，
打开冰箱，
拿起一罐将要过期的牛奶，2005 年11月20日，
芫尔，
如果友情也有保存期，能否把它保存与冰箱。。。
试图保持曾经的新鲜度，它却逐渐失温。。。奈何

当友情仅剩电邮与短信，
当彼此间失去了原有的默契，
当彼此都歇力地寻找共同的话题，
当彼此都在各自的生活模式里，
真正保存友谊的该是共同拥有的回忆吧。。。
那段悲欢苦乐共度的日子。

虽然无言，
朋友，你们依然在我心中，一直都在。。。

2006 年的第六天 。。。

就如冰淇淋融化的瞬间，送走了多事的2005， 有点措手不及地被2006踩了一脚。
每每到了这个时节，各家报章杂志的专栏上就会布满了密密麻麻的运势预言，自封啊Q传人的我，总抱着信好避霉的心态，或许这样生活会快乐点吧， 生活已经够累的了，若在为这些有时会自掌嘴巴的预言而提心吊胆，岂不知找烦恼嘛。。。 :p
Hmm... 说点好地吧，预言说我今年会走桃花运，真可笑，我这人又怎会跟桃花这两个字占上边呢，莫名其妙，然，心里还是会期盼这是真的，矛盾矣。
2006 的开头，懵懵然的参与了一个团体，吃错药地毛遂自荐，有点担心，希望一切顺顺利利吧，也希望自己在处事方面能够成长。(0_<)
最近又“加油”了，是时候减肥了。。。 就从明天开始吧， 我总不想自己又变回从前胖胖的样子吧， 何况新年快到了 eh..
加油减肥咯！！！ （可是，明天是朋友生日eh... 唯有牺牲口福咯！ 紧记紧记！）

I have Raven Eye

RAVEN EYES

You have Raven Eyes!

Positive Traits: Intellectual,Wise, Experienced, Honest,Trustworthy
Negative Traits: Pompous,Condescending, Withdrawn, Pessimistic,Depressed

Your eyes are the windows to your soul. What type of eyes do you have?

平凡工作天。。。

Today is a typical working day, perhaps the so called *reluctant* day for all working people coz today is MONDAY. :P
Still with the headache problem of my work, hope can solve it soon.
The TV that i have been looking forward for the whole week yet been delivered. The Courts people promised they will sent within one week and perhaps tomorrow is the due date, what a *NICE* promise they kept.. (x_x)
Hopefully they will keep their promise..... *within one week*... but i have missed up all those movies and shows that attract me when i read the weekly TV show synopsis last week... dissapointed. But, the first thing i need to do tomorrow is to buy an antena for my TV, if not, i will end up *watching* the TV not the TV show..haha.
It's been nearly 8 months live without TV, wao.. fantastic, i can stand for so long :P
(partially because of the endless work, i need to stick at office.. pity me :( )
Work is endless anyway, if work has an ending, then most of us would be jobless..ahah..
So, i need a better mind set and try to balance up my work and my life!

It's been rainy these few days... all my clothes although washed but smelly due to the damp air.
Nothing special today, a typical working day. :)

Dreaming to step my feet oversea...

A bit frustrated, my life filled with work since I've started working as a software engineer.
Miserable of is this the life that i want to lead?
If not, what is my next step? What is the milestone of my life? More miserable...
I keep telling myself that i will work hard for one year and hopefully my life would back to her original path then... will it if i don't start creating my desired lifepath since now? 迷惘
Recently, the song 外面 touch my heart, its the voice of my heart right now, fancy of the world out there oversea but there are so many burdens that pulled me back. I wonder when my dream will come true, my dream of travelling around the world, my dream of step my feet on the land of other countries, especially the western countries like New Zealand, Greek, France, German... where people lead a totally different life from my country, my dream of inhaling the air of the other corner on earth. When will my dream come true? Wish it will come true one day.
My friend has finally fullfilled her dream of further study oversea at German, really admire her, she can have her dream come TRUE. Between, keep telling myself to improve my poor english, from the bottom of my heart, i know that english is one of the powerful key that can help to open the door of my dream. Hopefully one day my dream will come true!

Mum's birthday is coming soon, thinking of buying her a blouse, hopefully i will have time for that. Need to travel back to my hometown as soon as after the annual dinner, i will need to buy a midnight ticket then. Oooo... annual dinner, wonder if my dear friend is free to entertain me, i think better give her a sms or a call to confirm, by hook or by crook i will need to get my hawaii gown for the annual dinner. BIG PLAN - slim down to fit in the gown! :P yayaya...

Hopefully, my life would be like the song lyric

我一定找到自己的存在。。。

心情

Feeling Moooody...

Hmm.. feeling moody these few days, My mind keep looking for something but neither do i can tell what my mind is looking for. Memories flash back easily, and pull me into tears when i think of or dream of my beloved dad, it's been one year plus since my dad left but the wound in heart is hardly healed, i think i understand how chai pin, my colleague feels when she lost her father lately. We willnot cry in front of others but in our own blanket when we are alone.... Feeling bad when people said i am the only daughter of my father that didn't cried for his passed away, why are they so sure? Doubted, this is the real world, people believe of what they saw and heard of, even it was just flake of the whole piece of truth, so do i, a typical human being. My concious keep telling myself not to put someone or something into conclusion before i really know the whole piece of story, hopefully i can learn day by day. Everyday is a great opportunity to live a happy life, wish that i can have a great attitude to everyone that i meet, greeting them, giving them a truthful smile. A smile can lightened up one life, don't be selfish with your smile! *Amitabha* (>_0)